Saturday, June 14, 2014

Recovery Road and Sobriety

The Journey of Recovery Road


Recovery Road is the name of the figurative path and journey of my life in Recovery from Addiction Disorder (Alcoholism and Addiction). 

My Higher Power started on Recovery Road in 2004. Recovery Road has lead me to wonderful achievements in life. I moved to Texas to be closer to my parents, continue my career as a teacher and take a position as a Texas High School Baseball Coach. I stayed on Recovery Road and basting in all of the glory of my achievements until 2006 when I decided to veer off of Recovery Road.  

In June of 2006, the temptations and rationalizations of drinking again became a reality.  As an alcoholic, I rationalized that I could begin drinking again and control it this time.  Part of the reason I uprooted my life and moved across the country to Texas was to get a fresh start and begin drinking again.  I could put my past behind me and start over fresh, not even considering that I was an alcoholic and could never drink again.

At times, alcoholics and drug addicts will change their environment, whether it be moving across the country, to a different city, break-off a relationship, divorce, etc, but the fact remains, an alcoholic is an alcoholic and a drug addict is a drug addict.  It is chemically and genetically driven in people who live with this disease.  Running from the reality of the disease is could be compared to not being treated for cancer with scientifically proven methods such as chemo.  If changing the environment would cure cancer, people would be moving all of the time and this country would be in chaos.  Treatment of Addiction Disorder is in the same realm and will not be effectively treated or managed without effective treatment from professionals.  

I am currently back on Recovery Road and have been moving at a leisurely pace since March 14, 2011.  Recovery is a marathon, not a race, and I just passed the 39 months / 3.25 year marker.  An intervention helped get me to the path of the second round of treatment at La Hacienda Treatment Center in Hunt, TX.  The events that lead to this decision were getting ready to destroy my life and drove me to my personal rock-bottom.  When I was at rock-bottom and realized I needed professional help after meeting with three respected members of the addiction community in Austin, TX, I knew it was time (even though I did not want to believe it).  I stated several times to these people that I would agree to out-patient meetings because I did not want to be away from my family.  They told me I was being selfish and I would not be around my family not much longer if I did not go to a treatment center out of town.

Action Plan that Lead Me Back to Active Recovery in Living with Addiction Disorder:

1) I made decisions while using alcohol that lead severe health problems / possible separation from wife & kids, etc.

2) Wife met with me at the house to tell me if I did not stop drinking and get help, I would have to move out of the house or her and the kids would move out. 

3) Spoke with my Dad and Mom on the phone. They LISTENED. He then gave me a number to a person he had spoken to on the phone that is connected with the Austin Recovery Community.

4) On the same day, with intense hesitation, I met the people I called at Starbucks and then we went to a restaurant where I was told if I did not go back into in-patient treatment, I would not have a successful recovery with the severity of my Addiction Disorder / Disease.

5) A few phone calls were made with an Outstanding Family Friend, Michael S, and connections were made. La Hacienda Treatment Center had an opening and I could be admitted in 6 days. I was still hesitant about going back into another treatment center, but at this point, I was making decisions based on my current position, sitting at rock bottom. 

6) La Hacienda couldn't accept me for 6 days.  I spent those six days with my wife and son (my other kids were with their dad) detoxing and preparing to be away for a month. Detoxing from Alcohol and other drugs can be life-threatening and the person should be closely monitored. Emergency care should be considered in severe detox circumstances. 

7) I received a phone call from La Ha stating that they were ready to admit me.  My wife, parents, son and I loaded in the truck and drove to La Ha.  I cried and cried as I said good-bye and they drove away.  I am crying right now as I am typing this thinking about it.

8) I spent 32 days in intensive treatment which not only saved my life, but gave me skills, strength, courage and knowledge to be a better husband, father, son, brother, teacher, coach, Son of God, etc. 

Treatment at La Hacienda and Hazelden saved my life, marriage, family, career, etc.  I learned how to live life to the fullest and appreciate the value of others and God. 


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