Friday, December 12, 2014

Addiction Inspiration


"Turn Wine into Water"

By: T. Graham Brown



You've heard a multitude of prayers on my behalf

I pray one more is not too much to ask
I've tried to fight this battle by myself
But it's a war that I can't win without Your help



Tonight, I'm as low as any man can go
I'm down and I can't fall much farther
And once upon a time, You turned the water into wine
An' now, on my knees, I'm turning to You, Father
Could You help me turn the wine back into water?



So many times I've hurt the ones I love
I pushed them to the edge of giving up
They've stood by me but how much can they stand
If I don't put this bottle in Your hands?



Tonight, I'm as low as any man can go
I'm down and I can't fall much farther
And once upon a time, You turned the water into wine
An' now, on my knees, I'm turning to You, Father
Could You help me turn the wine back into water?



I shook my fist at heaven for all the hell that I've been through
Now I'm begging for forgiveness and a miracle from You



'Cause tonight, I'm as low as any man can go
I'm down and I can't fall much farther
And once upon a time, You turned the water into wine
An' now, on my knees, I'm turning to You, Father
Could You help me turn the wine back into water?



Could You help me turn this wine back into water?
Yeah, yeah

Reflection:
I heard this song for the first time at Hazelden Treatment Center, my first experience in treatment for alcohol addiction. This song inspired me then and continues to inspire and motivate me to this day.  The lyrics and every word sang, gives me hope and inspiration.  In another blog, I received a response from a post that a person is in recovery without the help of a higher power.  The person stated that I don't drink and don't drink if you want to stay sober.  This is obviously true and common sense, but I believe that a Higher Power is helping me through my recovery and I couldn't do it without that assistance.  Recovery is beyond just the physical action of not drinking.  It is about believing in yourself and staying inspired by all elements of a mental, emotional, physical and spiritual life... At least this is my experience.  I do not and should not have to defend my beliefs that a Higher Power exists and guides me through recovery.  It is about the physical action of not drinking or using drugs, but in my opinion, recovery from addiction is beyond that.  Now the controversial topic exists asking 'is addiction a disease' and if not a disease, what should it be classified as.  I am free to think what I want and believe what I have educated myself with.  It's a great question and one that will exist for years to come.  I personally believe it is a disease / disorder / chemical imbalance / genetically predisposed brought on by possible environmental factors and decisions.  I also believe that as you use a drug or drink alcohol for an extended amount of time, pathways in your brain start to change and effect reasoning / thinking. 
As long as proper research is continued to done and treatment is available for those who need it, call it what you want... I like it when people share their opinions and thoughts with me, but telling me I am wrong in my beliefs of a Higher Power or that addiction is not a disease is insane.  Comments of people disagreeing with me or sharing with me their beliefs vs. mine are completely acceptable and invited.  I do have a hard time with the people that make decisions to be demanding in pressing their beliefs onto other people.  The question of 'is addiction a disease' is such a great topic because it opens up a dialogue in the community / world about something that is devastating to our society.

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